亲爱的，对不起。

roller-coaster

it hurts

nearly killed me throughout the night

or rather i wished someone would do so

so that i could get off the emotional roller-coaster

sometimes

i ponder why didn't it take me instead of him

sometimes

i know the reasons why

well

ain't no human is perfect

what more a half like me?

i ain't blaming you

just that the ride took me to various spots

fear, worry, frustration, disappointment, hope and anger

till it became a cycle throughout the night

it was cracked several times before

and again tonight

i understand my limits now

and i know you do too

remember our promises

Love,

B