Sunday, June 21, 2009

"Mister, I have someone I would like you to meet"

Watched a late night movie shown on the tv - "Father of the Bride 2"

Didn't expect to have emotions running all over me, images and memories flying past all the while.
Then again, i don't really understand myself, least to have expectations on what would happen to myself.

The movie reminds me of him. I didn't know i miss him so much, so much that i'm sad, angry, frustrated, disappointed and happy, all within a few minutes. And i have a feeling that this potpourri of emotions is gonna stay with me for a long time...

Frankly, the movie's a good one. It's a comedy, but very inspiring and able to reach into my heart. My tears were close to escaping a few times. Tears of worry and happiness. It reminds me so much of him and the time spent with them. I should have been more appreciative, caring, understanding and cautious. Should have.....

"Mister Banks, I have someone I would like you to meet..."
That's one of the best moments in the movie. I'm gonna remember this movie, for a long time. As a reminder to myself, for now and the future.

I have been hit hard, very hard. Twice in a short period of time. Once due to someone I love, another due to my own responsibility. Putting a brave front is easy, but it hurts and tires me. Now i understand her pain and emotions back then. Brave girl, struggling hard yet unrevealing.
The Sun always shines on you, just that maybe it's not the way you want it to be. I will always pray for both of you. Bless you.

The second hit was hard. I was on my knees, not begging for mercy or forgiveness, but a chance to pay back the faith given to me. Redeeming myself will not be easy. It has started and hit a few walls, but I will not be deterred anymore. This is a promise for you, young man.

I miss you, both.